The things I don't want to think about

Sleep. Sleeping. Not sleeping.

How old I am.

Whether my darling girl will be nearsighted, like me.

That my girl will have to go through jr. high/middle school and all the hormones and angst it contains.

Whether I want to have another baby.

House repairs/renovations.

How much free time I used to have, and how much I didn't know how much time I had.

How many waking hours the Olive spends with the nanny vs. us every week.

Whether/how we could have planned differently and whether I could have stayed home indefinitely.

How I'd be entertaining the Olive all day if I were at home with her.

The guilt that I feel when it seems so hard to keep her happy in the few hours before and after work that I spend alone with her.

Whether I'll ever/I should make a career change.

Laundry.

If I'm ever going to have sex again.

What we're going to have for dinner tonight. And tomorrow night. And the next night....

The dinners I used to make, before I had a baby.

Breastfeeding.

Weaning.

How long it's been since I have seen many of my friends who do not have children.

Whether I've become antisocial.

The Olive being hurt in any way at all.

The state of my marriage.

How little I feel I have to give to my husband, sometimes.

How tired I am, sometimes.